Tapestry Swirl

September 22, 2011 · 11 comments

Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl

Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl

Drifting through Beth’s garden in the quiet still morning I was unsure whether I would take any pictures.  I just wanted some time to appreciate her marvelous Oregon garden so full of choice plants and foliage textures.  Before you take a decent picture you have to see it; and I am unsure of my vision these days.

My eyes are not right.  The cataract surgery went smoothly enough but I am still left with the pronounced vision loss in the left eye from the detached retina surgeries.  I am wearing a single contact lens in the “good” eye but feel very unsure of my balance, have limited stereo vision, and not seeing the way I want to see.

I can’t yet put my finger on what is not right, but I do know there is no going back.  My vision will never be the same.

Angst.  No better word as I look for some inspiration in a garden I know should inspire, even in this quiet season of late summer.  I have it to myself.  Quiet, a cathedral in the trees.

Oregon cathedral woods

What DO I see ?  Relax and respond.  I see light when it hits me in the face.  I see it blur in my eyes and flare across everything.  Are there pictures here?  Do I have to see my old definition of beauty ?  And if I don’t, what DO I see ?

Let this be the new reality.  Trust the story.  Embed the feeling.  I let the journalist in me play with the Moss Man as he holds a seat for Beth’s departed sister.

Moss man in Beth's Garden, September

But what else?  Where is beauty ?  I don’t know damn it !  I feel all swirly and unsteady;  shapes blur and meld.  Shoot that then.  See what happens in the computer later.  The camera image is only the starting point; and the journey continues.

Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl Vertical

Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl Vertical

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L'tle Bitz September 25, 2011 at 6:02 am

Simply beautiful and touching. love you

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Saxon September 25, 2011 at 11:33 am

Ahh shucks …

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hannah beynon strutt September 26, 2011 at 5:05 pm

Beauty out of adversity is a sight to behold! Your courage, talent and tenacity Wow me!

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Saxon September 26, 2011 at 8:05 pm

Hannah – Thanks for dropping by. Beauty surrounds u, as you well know. Adversity just changes the perspective a bit. – Saxon

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chris jacobson September 26, 2011 at 6:22 pm

Saxon
I had not heard of this problem. I’m so sorry…Oh how age levels all before it. I have had 2 shoulder replacements (years of athleticism) and am just getting my juju back after about 5 years of limited motion…. my attitude is much like yours…. use what’s left to the utmost, find the positives wherever they may be hiding, and always always treasure this little time we have on earth. All my very best
Chris

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Saxon September 26, 2011 at 8:09 pm

Chris – Great to hear your own attitude. Life throws everyone some adversity and best not to advertise one’s own too much because there are always those with a bigger load to pull. – Saxon

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Janet Davis September 27, 2011 at 4:35 am

Saxon – I am sorry to hear that your outcome has been less than you hoped (by a lot, obviously). I think, however, your own special attitude and perspective will create an opportunity for a more thoughtfully interpretive kind of art. I see no tears here. Janet (in Istanbul, where your tapestry would fit in nicely with the kilims and flower carpets.)

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Saxon September 27, 2011 at 8:22 am

Janet – Thanks for stopping by. I never quite expected the permanent part of the vision loss would be so … permanent. But it is not like I can’t see; and in fact since my visit to Beth’s Oregon garden I have had a new prescription on my contact lens and some of the instability is definitely gone. Still adjusting…. Saxon

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Donna October 8, 2011 at 2:43 pm

Even not 100 percent, you are still heads above the rest. Your photographs still remain as art, and your technique one to admire. I enjoy your attitude and see how your journey continues. Just beautiful.

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Saxon October 8, 2011 at 3:47 pm

Thanks for following this journey Donna. We’ll see where it goes, but I hope you continue to see the art in it. Saxon

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