M’Eyes, Weeping Tapestry

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fine art photo Saxon Holt M'eyes series

I promised myself I would complete a portfolio of images documenting my perceptions after the detached retina.  There were a good number attempts to do this with my G11 camera in the first months after the surgery.  I never got around to working on very many of them.

These photos are the weeping crabapple tree, ‘Molten Lava’ just outside my office door.  (Click on the photo to see a larger view.)  As I walk out of the office and look into the lower garden, past the variegated Rhamnus and toward the autumnal orange foliage of Cotinus ‘Grace’, the red fruit of the crabapple move in relation to the shapes beyond.  My hyper acute perception that I don’t have depth perception makes me see these red balls of fruit as if they were a cel film overlay in an animation studio.

What fun really to see the shapes line up and become a tapestry !  Planes of perception, sliding  back and forth as I move in mere inches this way and that.  The ability to crop exquisitely in post production, to peek through just enough of the spikey Phormium in the foreground, after cropping out some empty space in the lower right, gives a final composition that fills the frame with a fine balance of shape, texture, and color.

Here is how it looked originally before I worked on it.

original of m'eyes tapestry weeping crabapple

I adjusted the color, cropped, removed the stake holding up the young tree, and used a Topaz Simplify filter, BuzSim (adjusted) to create a rich, nearly surreal rendition to match my mood.

In another view of the same scene I used a PhotoShop filter, ‘Palette Knife’ to render the effect.  (click photo for larger view)

M'eyes - Red fruit of Crabapple 'Molten Lava'

Note in this version I kept the stake that supports the tree but removed the Phormium leaf.  So many small aesthetic decisions need to be made that can make a huge difference  to the balance and composition of the final photo.  Who knows I may change them again.  So much to learn …

fred fruit of weeping crabapple, before post production

More images to come.  Here is a link to a previous post and photos I took of the Cotinus ‘Grace’ shrub seen in the background, all taken in those same few days, November 2010, after the second surgery.

Dusk, Blackwater Pond

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Blackwater Pond, Cape Cod National Seashore

Blackwater Pond in the Cape Cod National Seashore, seen here at dusk last October, is rendered using computer manipulation of the digital file.  There was a time, and I can define that time more precisely: before my vision was altered with the series of retina operations, when I would seldom use obvious manipulation on my photos.  Oh, I was frequently tempted, but never had a clear reason to do so.

Now, a full year after the first operation and only a few months into adjusting to the new vision, I find manipulating photos to be the best way to communicate what I see.  I started this Mental Seeds blog so that I could explore these personal photos and gain better understanding of digital manipulation.  So now, what I see, either actually or in my mind’s eye, is often in need of some post production enhancement and expression.  The new vision has liberated me from strict realism in my photography and given me permission to learn these tools and apply them to my art.

Notice I have not used the word PhotoShop.  Like the word Google, Photoshop is so well understood it has become a verb.  We google for something on the internet, we photoshop our images.   But there are other ways to manipulate photographs without using Photoshop.  Even camera phones have apps to enhance photos.  The painterly affect used on Dusk, Blackwater Pond was achieved with a series Topaz filters.

To be sure, I used the Topaz filters as plug-ins to Photoshop but they can be used with other programs such as iPhoto.  The concept here is using whatever tools are available to make the picture look like I want it.  I love having the excuse of new vision to learn these tools.  Without going into all the specifics, I used the controls within two Topaz filters (Simplify3 and Adjust5) to bring out the watercolor impression after I used Bridge and Adobe Camera Raw to correct the original image.  The affect is best seen on a full size print, but clicking on the photo will bring up a slightly larger view.

Either way, the original was pretty dull in the camera, even though I “saw” the  pastel sky colors reflected in the water:

I was pretty disappointed how the camera interpreted what I saw in the waning light and didn’t even think to work on this photo until I decided to learn the Topaz tools.  The graphic composition was strong but had little of the feeling of that soft gloaming evening sky.  The tools brought back the color, and the watercolor effect simplifies the scene and allows it to glow.

As long as I am working on my art photos from that shoot I’ll show another one.  No filters needed on this view of native shrubs growing alongside the pond.  Realism is the message.

Native Shrub Tapestry by Cape Cod Pond

I have always seen flat, tapestry patterns in nature.  I haven’t shown very many but now have the opportunity and excuse to explore the fine art side of my photography.  Whether or not my vision is forcing me to see new compositions, I can’t yet judge.  Certainly I am building on how I have learned to see and some of these new photos I may very well have seen anyway.  But I am sure I wouldn’t be showing them.

Next up: 2012.  I hope to approach a gallery in the new year and get these things shown properly, large and on paper.

Seeing Slices

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Tupelo leaves in sight slices
Tupelo Leaves, Sight Slices 1

I am sometimes baffled by what I see.

I will slap my face looking at a scene and wonder why am I not seeing what I expect to see.  The Tupelo tree (Nyssa sylvatica) in my front yard commands attention when it comes into fall color, and I expect to be amazed every year.  I expect to see a blaze of color, a shimmering collection of leaves.

I didn’t see it that way this year because my eyes do not work together as they once did.  I can certainly manage daily life, but my photo instincts have changed.  The eyes see so very differently now, with all surgeries done, new glasses, and a single contact lens in one eye.  It has been more than a year since the first retina surgery and all seems stable, but the partial vision loss and spherical aberration in one eye has left me unbalanced.

I am at once frustrated and amazed at the current state of my vision.  The imbalance only really affects me when I move.  Standing still, my brain tends to correct things and lets the right eye, always the dominant one, decide what I am seeing.  But when I stop to think and let both eyes work, they do not focus the same way and I see in slices.

This sounds more radical than it is, I will never be a case study for Oliver Sachs; and in these examples of the Tupelo leaves I have exaggerated the effect.  But the fun part of seeing so differently is allowing myself the excuse to play.

Here is the original photo of Sight Slices 1 (above).  A nice photo in itself.  A straight photo in my old style.  No blur.

By playing with PhotoShop, adding a blur filter and then painting out (erasing) certain areas as “slices”, I am able to draw attention to specific leaf clusters rather than the whole tapestry.  And much more intriguing to look at don’t you think ?  Attention is drawn to the details, the slices, that make the whole.

Let’s try another one.  Here is the original for Tupelo Leaves, Sight Slices 2:

slices 2 original

To make a full tapestry feeling, I need to crop out some rather empty areas on the left that make the photo feel unbalanced.  Then realized I needed to add some more leaves to some “holes” in the composition:

slices 2 with guides and holes

Knowing I was going to blur out most of the photo it was very easy to cut leaves out of one part of the frame and move them to the “holes”.  No sloppy edges would be noticed.  Then, once I had the composition I wanted, I blurred the entire photo and painted away the slices I wanted to reveal.  It took a little trial and error but here is what #2 looks like:

Each of the Sight Slices photos has a different feel and color contrast but illustrate a bit of the impressions I get when I let both eyes truly study a scene.  I see slices of detail in the midst of a subject; and really, whether or not it is blurred.  I have always looked carefully at the details that make a composition, but my vision problems allow me analyze this duality and create photos I wouldn’t have thought about before.

I think it is more interesting to consider the scene with this duality anyway.  As we look into the details that make up any scene, our eyes see the details while the brain assimilates the entire view.  Well duh, but I never thought about trying to illustrate it.

For a little background, I finish with a wide photo of my Tupelo tree as seen from my front steps.  In my workshops I have  a topic “Find a Photo”.  I stood on my steps looking at this scene and wondered what I was seeing.

front yard with tupelo in fall

I also wondered when I would rake the leaves:

 

 

 

Dawn at the Cape

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Cape Cod Dawn
Provincetown Dawn on Cape Cod Bay

Sometimes the less said about the creative process, the better.  Sometimes I just want to do my work and move on.

If you like this computer altered photo of dawn at the beach in North Truro during my recent trip to Cape Cod, I will be most pleased if you stop reading now. Here is a larger size to better appreciate the alteration.

Thanks for stopping by.  The photo should be appreciated for what it is.  Explaining it implies it needs explanation.

You’re still reading.  I suppose knowing there are these words ahead you expect some insight.  Why did I alter the photo ? Or why was a garden photographer on this beach at dawn.

First, I show this picture because I am exploring.  I have been defining myself as a garden photographer for more than 25 years and am feeling constrained by that definition.  Entirely self imposed I know, but never-the-less I have been seduced by the successes I have had to think that gardens are where I should spend my energy, and other work was irrelevant – i.e. I couldn’t sell it.

That statement alone is fraught with other meaning but it is true that I take few pictures that I don’t think I can sell.  I hardly take any family photos because I know they can not approach the quality of my professional work.  A sad confession to make as a photographer.  I wish I could say I was consumed to take photos regardless of who sees them, technical quality, or market value.

With those very thoughts about how I define my art bubbling through my brain, and adjusting to the changes in my blurry vision these past few months, I went to Cape Cod for a family reunion centered around the 80th birthday of my Uncle Graham.  My uncle is an oceanographer and has lived in the dunes of what is now Cape Cod National Seashore most of his life.  He is friends with the poet Mary Oliver whose words have immortalized the area and inspired me to bring my cameras in a vain hope to capture an iota of her insight with an image.  This, of course is impossible, since a poet’s genius is in the fact they do not lock you into their visual but allow your soul to soar with your own imagination.

That being said and wanting to explore some new work, I had the excuse to pack my bags and tote my best cameras on a non garden trip.  I planned an early morning expedition to High Head and the immortalized ponds on the first day, before all the family was to gather.  Yet when I looked out of my motel room overlooking Cape Cod Bay in the pre-dawn light and smelled the air, I could not resist the beach.  I decided to be exhilarated by the dawn rather than forcing myself into the poet’s preserve.

I grabbed my G11 point and shoot camera and walked toward Provincetown.  Is sublime a too banal a word for my feeling in that morning light ?

This is  what the camera captured of those little lumberman’s bungalows facing the bay.

The best camera is the one you have with you when the heaven’s open, and the G11 became my tool.  Any digital image capture would need enhancement of this scene but the limitations of the point and shoot to enlarge to exhibition size persuaded me to use some artistic filters.  With the filters transforming the pixels, I can make a large print without some of the noise and, well, simply, make the scene more painterly.

It is a slow process learning to use digital photo filters, but I find myself comfortable in the work.  It allows me to feel more careful in selecting images I want to share, slowing down to work on aspects of the photo that bring out mood.  Perhaps I should be working more on my straight camera skills to bring out the mood.  Perhaps.  But I am not consumed to take pictures.  I feel consumed to make some art.

After the sun came up and its fresh light skipped across the gentle waves of Cape Cod Bay, I used the G11 macro feature and swivel tilt viewing screen to capture a low angle view of the bubbling beach foam.  I won’t bother to show you the original, and this interpretation still needs some work I think.   Sometimes the less said about the creative process, the better.

Tapestry Swirl

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Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl

Drifting through Beth’s garden in the quiet still morning I was unsure whether I would take any pictures.  I just wanted some time to appreciate her marvelous Oregon garden so full of choice plants and foliage textures.  Before you take a decent picture you have to see it; and I am unsure of my vision these days.

My eyes are not right.  The cataract surgery went smoothly enough but I am still left with the pronounced vision loss in the left eye from the detached retina surgeries.  I am wearing a single contact lens in the “good” eye but feel very unsure of my balance, have limited stereo vision, and not seeing the way I want to see.

I can’t yet put my finger on what is not right, but I do know there is no going back.  My vision will never be the same.

Angst.  No better word as I look for some inspiration in a garden I know should inspire, even in this quiet season of late summer.  I have it to myself.  Quiet, a cathedral in the trees.

Oregon cathedral woods

What DO I see ?  Relax and respond.  I see light when it hits me in the face.  I see it blur in my eyes and flare across everything.  Are there pictures here?  Do I have to see my old definition of beauty ?  And if I don’t, what DO I see ?

Let this be the new reality.  Trust the story.  Embed the feeling.  I let the journalist in me play with the Moss Man as he holds a seat for Beth’s departed sister.

Moss man in Beth's Garden, September

But what else?  Where is beauty ?  I don’t know damn it !  I feel all swirly and unsteady;  shapes blur and meld.  Shoot that then.  See what happens in the computer later.  The camera image is only the starting point; and the journey continues.

Katsura and Berberis - Foliage Tapestry Swirl Vertical